无奈

寂静的夜色漆黑的天幕
今晚星月都到哪儿去了
幽幽的心情淡淡的哀愁
疲惫的身心流浪的人儿
苦涩的红酒一杯又一杯
还是那么的清醒不会醉
不是在逃避也不是颓废
只想偶尔让自己醉一醉
人生真的很玄是梦非梦
是幻非幻何必太过在意
很想喝醉那么一刻也好
为何却还是如此的清醒

Retardated Side of Ivan LWT!!!

He is going to kill me soon.
Hahahaa~

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I know it's better to update my bloggie right now since I've been abandoning it for 2 weeks more if I'm not mistaken. Sorry anyway. Totally got no such mood recently as there had something was happened on me the other week of that DAMN April. Well, I'm not going to explain about the happening. For me, it was just a small matter or else it meant nothing. Luckily that it didn't put me any big influence afterward. In addition, I was having my final exam this few weeks. But yeah, the f*cking final exam is over by this early morning eventually. HOORAY!!! No more papers to let me screw up. Swt~ Meanwhile it signifies that my Year 2 of campus life is end up officially & gonna get ready myself for being Super Senior of the freshies soon. Okay, who care?

Ooh yeah, I went to Red Box Karaoke of The Gardens with my course mates once we done our paper of Kewartawanan Siaran. Guess what. This is the very first time I went outing with them. It's kinda shame because never join their gathering although knew them about 2 years already. We 6 persons (Eaven, Polly, Jocelyn, Suet Nie, Lee San & me) decided to have great fun after finish our last major paper. Yeap!!! It was quite nice to hang out with them. Really enjoy my day with them even though I felt a bit of weary as never had sleep yesterday night due to gonna stay up to do my revision. I'm not complaining anything as well but I knew that this is what I should be deserved because of my GOOD habit, Last-Minute-Work.

I think that's all I wanna talk here. I'm going to sleep soon & have to get up earlier to pack my luggage out of my current room. F*ck the damn hostel rules up that never considerate of the troubles we gonna face whenever each final semester. Sigh. Got no energy to grumble this & that some more. Better keep the rest for dating with Patrick tomorrow. Midvalley again~

Guys, good night.

Camwhoring XD

都已21岁人了…
还扎孖辫、扮学生妹…
@.@
不错看嘛？
哈哈哈…
好啦好啦…
我知道我很欠揍…
=p
没法啊…
读书读到sot了几条神经根…
唉…
累了…
该是时候睡觉吗？
但书还没读完咧…
怎么办才好呢？
矛盾…
不管了…
就连神也救不了我…
有的我自身自灭吧…
悲吗？
还好呱…

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SKPD 2063
Sistem Sosial & Perlembagaan Malaysia
20/04/2009
1200 - 1330
1 hour 30 minute
Dewan Gemilang

FUCK MAN!!!
I was just had my drama《终极三国》only.
See how relax am I here right now.
Okay okay.
I know I should study but not blogging as well.
Totally got no motivate to push me to study at all.
It seems like have no any feel of tension for this final exam.
Bet you guys assume that I'm very confident with it.
This thinking is WRONG apparently!!!
I'm still in honeymoon.
Hahahaa.
What I had learn for this semester is KOSONG.
No doubt.
I never listen any lectures.
I'm very proud of myself.
Sure you guys feel like wanna throw eggs to me.
Right?
Wakaka.
Better stop here anyway.
Wish myself GOOD LUCK!!!
Bless Me~

男生！注意！

当你脱下她衣服裤子的同时，你就要负责让她为你穿上婚纱。

我是男孩，我理解男孩的心情。我也知道在青春期的时候，我们对女孩，尤其是自己的女友充满了好奇，并且我们都在自己的内心里想过要偷尝禁果。于是，我们会对自己的女友说出自己的想法，甚到提出性要求。而女孩呢，说真的，当女孩真的爱上男孩的时候，是愿意为男孩做任何的事情。她们为了满足她们心爱男孩的需要，为了不让心爱的男友失望，尽管她们的心里充满恐惧，一些女孩还是会答应男友的要求。我想知道的是在发生性关系的时候有多少男孩注意过自己的女孩的表情？

在要发生的那一刻，她们脸上表现出来的多半是害怕，焦虑和不安，并不是满足和欲望！在这个时候的我们男孩又在注意什么呢？我们有没有注意到她们的表情？有没有想过她们当时的心里的感受？我说了我也是男孩，因此，我知道，在那个时候我们最想做的就是让自己的欲望得到发泄，让自己很久的愿望得到实现。曾经我也和很多人一样，想要和自己爱的女孩发生那样的关系，并且向她提出了我的要求，像我说的那样她答应了。我知道当时的她并不知道那意味着什么，也不知道究竟要发生些什么。我猜当时的她只知道：＂这是我男友的愿望，是他想要的，我就要满足他，只要他高兴就好。＂女孩真的没有想过其他的事情。

就在我要进入她的身体的时候，我抬起头看了她一眼，当我看到她那双无辜的眼睛紧紧的闭着的时候，我突然发现自己是那么的禽兽不如，难道我曾经对她说过的那些海誓山盟，许下的那些誓言，通通都是在骗她吗？我真的爱她吗？我感觉得到她在发抖。我知道她很害怕于是我轻轻的爬在她的耳边问了她一句：＂你害怕吗？＂她睁开眼睛看着我，我看得到她的泪，她点点头。接着我又说了一句：＂那我们还是不要做了。＂

我又再一次看到了，我爱的她美丽的笑容，她抱住了我开心的说了一句：＂我爱你！＂我突然间觉得很开心，很快乐，这些通通胜过了满足我的欲望所能得到的快乐，我发现那个也并不是很重要了，我还有更重要的，那就是她，我最爱的宝贝。我说我的故事只是想说一点，当女孩爱上男孩的时候，她们愿意为我们做任何的事情，付出任何的代价而且也不会后悔，但是，我们做为男人是不是也应该为她们做一点事情？学会爱护她们、尊重她们、关心她们，也让她们为拥有我们真挚的爱开心呢!

Abandon for Temporarily~

Think may not be available for the following weeks. Due to my incoming final exam, so that I gonna get ready to push myself to study hard. | I think most probably I never mean it at last. =.=ll |

This is the schedule of my final exam. FUCK!!! 4 subjects squeeze together for the first week continuously. Apparently, got no enough time for me to do any preparation. Argh, it will be killing me like hell sooner or later. I might screw all my papers up once again. ><

Not this merely but also I haven't done another last of my individual assignment. Sistem Sosial & Perlembagaan Malaysia. Totally got no idea to do it and it gonna pass up by next week. Ish!!! I'm here even dare to tell that I never ever know what the fuck this lesson lecture about. Seriously. I'm getting mad soon. =(

Mumbling

Yoo!!!
Time To Party, Babies!!!
Just Get Your Own Rebellious Way To Ruin Yourself As Much You Wish!!!
WILD!!!
HOT!!!
SEXY!!!
INSANE!!!
BITCHY!!!
Yes!!!
Come On Babies!!!
Everybody Do Up Yourself!!!
Hooray!!!

Well..
Gonna Sleep Soon..
As I Promised Him To Sleep Before 2.30 AM No Matter What..
Perhaps The Second Picture Which I Uploaded Here Doesn't Shocked You Guys..
Yeah..
I Knew I Do Look Like A F*cking Retarded Kid..
Haha..
Whatever..
Okay..
Have To Stop Myself Right Now..
Good Night..
Oops..
I Nearly Forget One More Thing..
Wish You Guys Won't Get Nightmare When Having Your Slumberland..
Wakaka..